Stayin' Alive

Yo! It's been a fairly long time (in my opinion) since my last blog post and this is probably due to my own busy schedule filled with procrastination and lying on the couch for an x amount of time. It's weird because I am aware of my laziness yet I am not doing anything about it! Today I'll be writing about my own experiences and how I have been trying to break myself out of this cycle. 

If I were to be an animal, I'm fairly certain that I'd be a sloth. Not only because it has droopy eyes and a very nonchalant strut but because it resists movement and would much rather comfortably live in one place. Far too often (and even more so recently) I have adopted the same mentality and behaviour. 

For the past two weeks, I've had multiple assignments due for multiple classes and I spent at least 4 days on my couch watching basketball highlights and listening to OPM rock bands. I was feeling incredibly relaxed despite knowing I had mountains of homework to scale and conquer. What was so wrong with staying on the ground? Near places that I knew and felt comfortable with? In places like Zone Bowling or Pho 99. 

I regret it so much. Just in the last 3 days, I've felt more stressed and anxious than any other 3-day stretch in this entire school year. Thrown into a funk so deep I swear I could see Jacob Collier and Herbie Hancock dancing somewhere in the corner of my soul. Lying awake until 2 am with heaviness in my chest understanding that the year was finishing up and I was falling behind. 

However, I am thankful (once again) for the gift of music and dance. Even though I am not particularly gifted in either. 

What better way to get out of a funk than to dive in it with even more funk? 

My anxiety is loud but my IV Of Spades Spotify radio is even louder. 

My doubt weighs me down but Kanye's Sunday Service blasting over my computer's speakers lifts me up.

Disco Yes by Tom Misch transports me to a colourful world of sound. Away from my monotonous environment of schoolwork and assignments. 

I'm already feeling funky so I might as well dance along to the harmonies of hope hidden under the melody of uncertainty. 

There is always something underneath the surface of what we see. Whether it be joy hiding behind fear or happiness lurking near doubt; it is there if we simply take some time to look. It's challenging to be positive in the face of tragedy or disappointment but it only takes a few muscle movements to smile. And another few to bring out a laugh. A few more muscles and you'll be bursting into tears and rolling on the ground. 

Take some time today to smile. 

Find even more time to have a good laugh with a friend or a loved one. 

But take as much time as you need to deal with your funk

Basslines, guitar riffs, snappy drum beats

Bop your head! Shake those hips! Walk that strut!

The funk isn't here to stay but let's try to enjoy it anyway 

AMDG