The Days Go On
Good afternoon! Since my last blog post, I finished all my exams, signed up for my UBC Fall courses and graduated from high school! Wow. To be completely honest with you, I don't think one post is enough to describe what life's been like but I am going to try!
Throughout the past few weeks, I have dealt with pressure and a desire to have everything figured out; so that I (like most people) can feel secure and content with my life.
I have always loved the pursuit of obtaining knowledge,
in whatever form it may come in.
It could be through watching documentaries and movies based on WW2 and events that happened during its time. Or watching old Beatles' performances on Youtube so as to expand my musical taste and learn a little bit more of their impact on modern music. Perhaps it is also in reading books such as The Old Man And The Sea or The Alchemist, both written in the 20th century by eccentric, iconic authors in Ernest Hemingway and Paulo Coelho. Maybe it's even in the small bike rides or walks I take around my neighbourhood, eager to find new hiding spots and benches to sit down and really examine the environment.
All in all, if you completely just skimmed through that section and paid little to no attention, I am a nerd. I absolutely adore discovering and seeking out new things and experiences; in order to expand my knowledge and maybe even grow as a person.
But I also tend to deeply care for those things that I love, which in turn brings about a fear of imperfection and inadequacy.
This blog?
I haven't written a post in so long because I was afraid that I had lost my touch, my wonder; which would have produced something below my standards and maybe even the expectations of others.
My family?
I've spent plenty of quality time with them lately yet I still doubt my dedication them; Do I just care for them because they're the first faces I see when I come home? There are days where I feel my love for them is out of obligation and not personal choice.
My friends?
Throughout the past few weeks, I've had a number of memorable experiences and moments shared with them but with high school done, am I still going to be able to feel that way again? With these people moving onto different schools, places and areas in their life, it has been difficult to accept that the days of seeing them in the hallways every day are now done.
Pondering all these things, I have come to the realization of how long life truly is.
I've been trying to figure everything out by my own power and knowledge but I am slowly learning that His plan stops for nothing.
His dreams for me are far greater than any piece I could write or any song that I could sing.
When life feels like it is moving in slow-motion and the hands on the clock are covered by calluses,
When the wind blows against your face and sweeps your hair in every imaginable direction,
When volleys of rain greet you outside your doorstep and not beams of sunshine,
When toxic clouds of uncertainty smother the azure blue sky of hope hidden in your heart,
Remember that we still have the rest of our lives to figure everything out.
Life doesn't stop for anyone and neither should you.
Yesterday has come and gone, Tomorrow will come and go.
All we have is today.
And that is more than enough.
AMDG
Throughout the past few weeks, I have dealt with pressure and a desire to have everything figured out; so that I (like most people) can feel secure and content with my life.
I have always loved the pursuit of obtaining knowledge,
It could be through watching documentaries and movies based on WW2 and events that happened during its time. Or watching old Beatles' performances on Youtube so as to expand my musical taste and learn a little bit more of their impact on modern music. Perhaps it is also in reading books such as The Old Man And The Sea or The Alchemist, both written in the 20th century by eccentric, iconic authors in Ernest Hemingway and Paulo Coelho. Maybe it's even in the small bike rides or walks I take around my neighbourhood, eager to find new hiding spots and benches to sit down and really examine the environment.
All in all, if you completely just skimmed through that section and paid little to no attention, I am a nerd. I absolutely adore discovering and seeking out new things and experiences; in order to expand my knowledge and maybe even grow as a person.
But I also tend to deeply care for those things that I love, which in turn brings about a fear of imperfection and inadequacy.
This blog?
I haven't written a post in so long because I was afraid that I had lost my touch, my wonder; which would have produced something below my standards and maybe even the expectations of others.
My family?
I've spent plenty of quality time with them lately yet I still doubt my dedication them; Do I just care for them because they're the first faces I see when I come home? There are days where I feel my love for them is out of obligation and not personal choice.
My friends?
Throughout the past few weeks, I've had a number of memorable experiences and moments shared with them but with high school done, am I still going to be able to feel that way again? With these people moving onto different schools, places and areas in their life, it has been difficult to accept that the days of seeing them in the hallways every day are now done.
Pondering all these things, I have come to the realization of how long life truly is.
I've been trying to figure everything out by my own power and knowledge but I am slowly learning that His plan stops for nothing.
His dreams for me are far greater than any piece I could write or any song that I could sing.
When life feels like it is moving in slow-motion and the hands on the clock are covered by calluses,
When the wind blows against your face and sweeps your hair in every imaginable direction,
When volleys of rain greet you outside your doorstep and not beams of sunshine,
When toxic clouds of uncertainty smother the azure blue sky of hope hidden in your heart,
Remember that we still have the rest of our lives to figure everything out.
Life doesn't stop for anyone and neither should you.
Yesterday has come and gone, Tomorrow will come and go.
All we have is today.
And that is more than enough.
AMDG
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