Star(vation)

Good morning friend! I am currently sitting in Biology class with my small and fairly annoying friend who's first name is Empty and last name, Stomach. But I am trying to be more grateful for his presence because at least I have the ability to get food while most around the world living in poverty and injustice, don't. So rather than discussing my hunger for food, I want to talk to you about my hunger for growth and purpose. 

I enjoy eating a lot. When you take a look at me, you'd probably be like, "Uhm, Rave? Are you sure about that?" Yes it is true, I have a slim dare I say skinny stature but that doesn't diminish my love for munching and absolutely feasting when sitting down for a meal at home or even at a restaurant. I guess you can thank my genes and metabolism for what I look like today and I am genuinely okay with it. However, there is something there that you cannot see with your eyes and it is my hunger. My desire to be filled, to be satisfied. 

If I wanted to get something to eat right now, I could go to the cafeteria, buy a scone, pay $1.50 and boom! I am no longer hungry. But what if I wanted to write my own novel? Or produce a series of poems for my own personal development and escape out of my comfort zone. It wouldn't be so simple. 

Hunger for growth and change is a whole different level. It takes focus, dedication and most of all, a willingness to sacrifice and try new things. It's as if you're trying a mango for the first time, it looks fairly intimidating and the bright yellow might be a little scare but once you take that first bite, you'll wonder why you ever doubted in the first place. 

This can be the case for my blog right now and my constant stream of posts that might be possibly overwhelming to my daily readers. (I apologize but thank you for coming along with me on this journey) It is definitely a challenge to find new topics to write about and discuss, especially when it takes a toll on my thinking and feelings. However, the growth I've experienced is no longer invisible or a fantasy, it can be found right here. The stories and experiences I share are a piece of my life that I want to impart to you, hoping that maybe you'll be able to relate and feel something. 

I used to post every 2-3 months and this was due to a spiritual high that somehow granted me the courage to start writing and posting. But what a fool I was because that courage and that ability has always been here! I know that some of my posts may be rough and hard to understand but it is me trying to talk about me and as an introverted, shy, stoic Filipino boy; it is difficult!

But this hunger within me that wants to improve, that wants to tell stories, that wants to make art is all I need in order to be who I am and share who I am with you. I do not want to be satisfied because then where would I go? 

This hunger pushes me to leave behind my comfort zone and venture off into uncharted territories where I will find the person, the writer and the man I am meant to be.

Would you like to join me? 

I'm sure they'll have chocolate milk 

and rainbow cookies on the other side

let's go! 

AMDG