We Are Infinite
Hello! I am extremely tired and exhausted from a super eventful day that hasn't even ended yet. (currently watching Get Out with a great group of people) But today, I was able to go to Play Land and once again, encounter my fear of amusement park rides. I genuinely did not want to go but I wasn't going to waste my $30 so I went anyways!
A BIG THANK YOU TO MY FRIENDS.
I can be (for a lack of a better word) a big wuss sometimes and today could've been one of those days where I opted for security rather than stepping out of my comfort zone. I've been terrified of amusement park rides for as long as I can remember; today was no different. But I am grateful for the people who've helped me and encouraged me despite my constant doubt and paranoia.
They've taught me to not let fear get in the way of life.
Even if it includes the sensation of my soul leaving my body,
even if it includes feeling dizzy, queasy and sick to my stomach,
even if it makes me scream and laugh at the top of my lungs, completely making a fool out of myself,
even if it means yelling at my friend sitting across from me, (sorry mom) and swearing, hyping myself up in order to dissolve my distress,
and especially when it leads to experiencing new feelings and forming precious, wonderful memories.
At this point in my life, I have walked away from so many opportunities that could have led to more growth and personal development. But today, I am glad to say that I have taken a small, baby step towards uncovering my true self and feeling comfortable and at home with the person I am. Someone who although is still fairly scared of rollercoasters and falling in love; chooses to take risks and sacrifice comfort for the sake of discovering the treasure I am called to find.
To try, experience and know is far better than to never try and therefore never know.
Life has been a series of twists, turns and hills that has left me breathless and filled with uncertainty. Not knowing where each path will lead is both frightening and thrilling, a rush of adrenaline that is not meant to last forever. But once I raise my arms up to the sky, yell at the top of my lungs, feel the cold air rushing through my very being, it is in that moment that I realize - I am alive.
"So this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be." - The Perks Of Being A Wallflower
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A BIG THANK YOU TO MY FRIENDS.
I can be (for a lack of a better word) a big wuss sometimes and today could've been one of those days where I opted for security rather than stepping out of my comfort zone. I've been terrified of amusement park rides for as long as I can remember; today was no different. But I am grateful for the people who've helped me and encouraged me despite my constant doubt and paranoia.
They've taught me to not let fear get in the way of life.
Even if it includes the sensation of my soul leaving my body,even if it includes feeling dizzy, queasy and sick to my stomach,
even if it makes me scream and laugh at the top of my lungs, completely making a fool out of myself,
even if it means yelling at my friend sitting across from me, (sorry mom) and swearing, hyping myself up in order to dissolve my distress,
and especially when it leads to experiencing new feelings and forming precious, wonderful memories.
At this point in my life, I have walked away from so many opportunities that could have led to more growth and personal development. But today, I am glad to say that I have taken a small, baby step towards uncovering my true self and feeling comfortable and at home with the person I am. Someone who although is still fairly scared of rollercoasters and falling in love; chooses to take risks and sacrifice comfort for the sake of discovering the treasure I am called to find.
To try, experience and know is far better than to never try and therefore never know.
Life has been a series of twists, turns and hills that has left me breathless and filled with uncertainty. Not knowing where each path will lead is both frightening and thrilling, a rush of adrenaline that is not meant to last forever. But once I raise my arms up to the sky, yell at the top of my lungs, feel the cold air rushing through my very being, it is in that moment that I realize - I am alive.
"So this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be." - The Perks Of Being A Wallflower
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